Thursday, April 5, 2012

Not Myself

              We only said goodbye with words I died a hundred times

First of all, I'd like to apologize for my long absence, it seems as though I had hid a point in my life where I wanted to change and try things on my own, and it worked out pretty well, so why am I here? Because everyone has their breaking points, some more than others; and I just hit mine. I'm completely off and, what I suspect, depressed. I don't know what to do with myself. Cris is completely weird and I feel as though he's being utterly fake around me. This isn't the first time I've noticed this, but he acts so different when he's with me and others. He has a double personality and I absolutely HATE when people do that. Lately I can't help but notice how disgustingly fake everyone is, people change their personalities constantly depending on who they are talking with. Why do people hide? I do understand when it's a "professional vs casual"atmosphere, but it's not. It really does sickens me and I just can't bring myself to trust anyone that does that.